Saturday, September 20, 2008

Wilted friendship......

Sam: What did u tell her? Did I ever say all that…? How could you…

Anu: I didn’t mean …that….

Sam: U didn’t mean …what?

Anu: I really didn’t think all this will get this far…am really sorry…

Sam: Don’t u have this much sense…they are in love so obviously they would feel bad..

Anu:I know but then I didn’t mean any harm to you…I didn’t know it would even affect our friendship…am so stupid….am so sorry yaar….

Sam: fine…bye…

Anu: but Sam…Sam….

But all she could hear was the disconnected tone…She flung the phone on the bed…and sat pulling her hair…what else could she do..? She had messed it up completely…though unknowingly she had come between two friends…and no one could mend the dent….
Anu opens her diary, her intimate friend, and flips back a few pages…


13 July, 2008

‘Had gone to college to collect my provisional certificate. Finally I had it in my hand! Three long years in the college summed up in this small paper….! Provisional certificate was just an excuse to meet my friends..I guess it was the same with all of us! Met Rakhi too…she didn’t seem very happy seeing her college mates…She was rather disgusted…and this phenomenon is common from the day she fell in love with Stalin .
She seems to believe only him…only what he says…that too blindly…No wonder people say love is blind..!I don’t say ,Stalin is faking it…he is genuine in his feeling…even more than Rakhi..but then u have to keep a good balance between love and friendship…You cant afford to forget your friends at the cost of your love….can you? Well I cant,but then Rakhi seemed as if she could….Stalin always had small tiffs with others in our group, and Rakhi kept blaming us…without even trying to find the core reason..all this had continued for quite a long time and finally it resulted in a “I don’t care attitude”both from rakhi’s and stalin’s side for their friends…

Well,we had our chit chat for quite some time..but then Rakhi always poked me with her beady eyes ,indicating ‘lets leave’.She was least interested in the group talks.Finally I agreed and we sat up to leave…Rakhi as always felt hungry ,and soon both of us were sitting in our favourite bakery ‘swami’s’(our hang out place ,when in college).Rakhi starts off abruptly,” I think every thing will be fine,I told about Stalin to my sis,at first she was shocked ,but when I told her that I was serious she said its ok…But the only problem is religion, he is Christian and am Hindu….rest I think I can manage” I just couldn’t believe it was the same Rakhi I had met a couple of years back….love in itself is courageous…so it imparts some to those in it..! ‘So its working for you Rakhi finally,gr8! I said with mixed feeling….but then I was happy for her! Rakhi ,again spoke ,this time with some sort of anger in her eyes…”I know you guys will support,but I doubt about Sam…he called stalin lately and they had some sort of spat.This Sam ,I don’t like him he is such a stud “ At this I broke open,” is it??...well he called me a few days back,he told me he is not gonna support you guys….actually he feels its not going to work!”
Rakhi just couldn’t stand this, she immediately said,” I am gonna tell this to Stalin, let him know what his friends feel about our relationship” oh..c’mon Rakhi,he didn’t mean it,why take it so seriously . Moreover he said all this long time back…just forget it yaar…don’t mess up the meager friendship left!....I said trying to cool the situation.But I think I had made a big mistake .Well,she promised she wouldn’t tell this to stalin…but then I doubted her..!


14 July, 2008
And yes, Stalin had it in his ears…the least I wanted to happen. Now whatever, friendship was left between us was at stake. I hope everything goes well, and Stalin remains his calm..I hope this tiff ends here and I in no way come between two good friends…

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Anu closed her diary....she couldn’t control her tears; she had come between two friends. Sam couldn’t be blamed as he was projected guilty, when he was not actually! Anu on the other hand had made life miserable both for Sam and herself!
A group which made the whole college rock , seemed to collapse before a small tremor!
Whose fault was it after all? Was it purposefully done? What good did it bring? All these queries seem tough to be answered…but then they need an answer. Let’s hope these are answered satisfactorily and end on a positive note saying….”If its autumn, can spring be far behind”!

3 comments:

destiny's child... said...

ok..anu...!
u know what...when i read the first line..which is sams dialogue...i knew what u were going into..
this piece HIGHLY inspired frm ur real life situation is well written...i liked some of the phrases u used...
but i had aproblem with the first dairy entry...it was not written like one...towards the end i mean..
other than that...good work! :)

Black Blood... said...

rashmi...

i thought it was seriously incomplete..and many things didnt make much sense..u could have bettered it..when you started it..i thought something is really waiting ..but finally it ended so silently and nothing much..

Keep writing!!!

JELU said...

hey...u hav discussed the same wid me na...anyway i didnt find anything so serious....and i m happy that u had a role in the break up of ur group...continue to be a circuit breaker....keep writing...keep rocking......and dont expect any more feedbacks...k